Disclaimer: This may be a sensitive issue for you. If this thread may cause you unnecessary stress, or triggers emotions that may cause you to engage in risky behaviour, please call a friend. Maybe both of you can read together. Your mental health is important… …even to me.
We all get stressed out. That’s okay. Issues, unfortunately, are a part of this life and cause us excruciating pain. When we are stressed out, we create outlets to make us feel better. In response to trauma and unpleasant circumstances, we play music, drink, smoke, vent and otherwise, just to take the edge off.
For some, committing suicide is the best response to their trauma. They would rather die by their own hands rather than hurt anymore. That’s the reality that we live in and many individuals are heading down that path. Maybe that person is you. Maybe you have a hard time seeing the possibilities of the future because of the pain of the present. The present doesn’t feel like a gift, I suppose, because of an ongoing battle within yourself and/or because of external forces.
Through readings and interactions, I have come to realize that there are different layers and depths to this issue that a single publication cannot address. For example, suicidal thoughts do not discriminate. It surpasses culture, class, and creed. Maybe you are one of the millions who dwell among mortals with a smile on your face but feel hopeless and empty.
Everything you’ve tried to feel better seems to be in vain. Maybe you are one of the many folks in this world who say and do cringe worthy things, but that is your way of crying out in distress… and no one can hear or understand you. You feel like you cannot cope anymore. Your perspectives would deceive you into believing that this is the only way out. You may think suicide is the only way you can be at peace once and for all. That’s not at all true.
Fighting to live is not always easy, but it is doable. Start off by getting help. There is no shame in seeking assistance with suicidal thoughts and tendencies. Talk to a professional. Don’t think about what other people might think. If you feel scared and vulnerable, ask a trustworthy friend to help you. It is best to walk this journey with someone who will be gentle and patient with you. The issues will thrive when you isolate yourself from a community that can offer you support.
Sometimes, you will be unable to speak to someone when thoughts pop up. In those moments, don’t take immediate action. Breathe deeply and engage in healthy outlets, like journaling how you feel and listening to one of your favourite songs. These techniques have the ability to keep you calm and avoid risky behaviour.
Be patient with yourself and the process. However, do not give up on yourself. Remind yourself that you are important. You are enough. You are a blessing. One day you will look back and smile knowing full well you have fought and overcome.
Take comfort in knowing you are not alone in this fight. There are persons who have felt this way before and got through it all. You have a life worth living, in spite of all your struggles. I pray you will see and believe that.
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