It’s that pain
That nagging pain that says You don’t care
It’s that suffering I face that says You aren’t there
It’s that pain that says it’s not my time for a new season
That pain
Saying I’m forgotten

So God!
Why are things moving in the wrong direction?
Confusion lingers here
Divine order feels like a figment of my imagination
Why is it that I can’t see Your promises?
Rising with Son?
Rising from the depths?
Why do I feel as if I have to face this world alone?
Why do I have to cry?
Burdens get heavier in my heart
And I shut them away

My faith feels like only a mystery
And every hope I have
Seems lost before me
I am about to break
I’m about to yield
I’ve suffered far too long
Can’t You let this end?
The cost of the cross is so hard to bear
All in the way of obeying You

I just need a breakthrough
Just that spark in this dark world of mine
I need You to come down
Talk to me
Tell me all the things I need to know
That I can just feel an inch of joy
Just one moment
Bring order
One moment of peace

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